I don't know if guys are dumbos or idiots.  After doing what he did, he expects me to be 'oh it's k' that attitude after trying to make amends by picking me up and going out.  Called me ice queen and expected me to respond to I luv u thing.  Sorry not happening.  Whatever you said I'm piss and cannot be taken back. Just reach home.  Played my part so now going to sleep

To be or not to be, that is the question in mind now for most of us.  It  was really torturing to go out with someone today.  So big already still can't look after herself.  Anyway I bought my new year stuff and all, so yup I'm like done with shopping for the next few months.  Shopping sucks sometimes especially with someone you don't really like. Seriously its like torture esp when u're nt feeling well

Can death resolve anything? Maybe that's why my best buddy Kenneth left the world quietly. I am already trying my best and maybe my best is not good enough for anything. I feel like a failure in all things now, like my world crumbling down in front of my eyes. Leaving now I guess won't resolve anything but cause more hurt to others but really it's hard to take it in at times, maybe I need time out now for awhile.

Guess everyone would have in someway or the other gone through whatI am going through now.  One minute I see the money and next is like poof gone. My mom like owe alot of people so yea I would have to help out and its what I want to do for her also.  She's been there for me no matter what I have donegood or bad.  I guess without her encouragement I guess I would not be here today in this course. I have to pay for stuff and all. Well at least I'm able to settle my bills now without much to worry about and like concentrate on school, may not be able to buy my uniform or shoes this month though.  Have to get to bed now cause early morning got to go settle my stuff like the bills.

I'm sorry to a friend that I might have made her awkward and think that I don't like her but she's the type that people feel irritated with. She's like seriously slow to understand things and my classmates and me did specify things on a paper but she still like made the grave mistake. We are basically running out of time and our test all round the corner and she's like takig it so easy.  We have to hand in both projects on the 7th week. I hope we can makeit in time

Funny How Life Is

Its really funny how life is, one minute the person is alive and suddenly for no reason just passes away like that.  Just a few weeks back was e passing of my uncle whose my father's brother and today one of my favourite cousins.  He was still young, less than 50 I guess. May his soul rest in peace.  Tday is the last day of the year .

Today went studying with Ahmad my classmate after meeting up with an irritating person.  Omg I feltlike it was really awkard cause I just didn't feel like talking and she was like seriously irritating. Her son chose aerospace engineering so I wish him the best of luck cause its not going to be easy.  It's like beter that we don't meet with each other cause I always feel irritated around her.  Its pretty late already and I made hot choco for my gal cause she gets hungry every night before she sleeps.  Guess that is growing children.  Alfie, my gal n I went like crazy after bringing Alfie for his walk, we started taking photos together. It was a good walk cause we got to talk and well had fun taking photos.